Some Scary News

Paul and I spent yesterday driving up to SLC for a couple of appointments and then coming back (a 5 hour drive each way for us). The first was his MRI and the second his regular follow up with the neurologist. What we found was a little bit scary. His MS is progressing right now. If you remember back in April I think I wrote about the relapse he was having, how he couldn't feel his legs very well and had to get a kind of emergency treatment (3 IV treatments over 3 days to help stop the inflammation in his brain). We found out a couple months later that he had a new lesion in his brain from that relapse.

Well he's been having a hard time and we found out why from the new MRI. He has another new lesion in his brain in addition to the one they found 5 months ago and his MS is active again. His neurologist is putting him on injection medication. We're trying Rebif and hopefully he won't have a bad reaction to it like the others he's been on. It's a subcutaneous injection 3 times a week and I am praying that it will help. He's been having such a hard time and every day it seems to get harder for him. To top it all off he needs to have a root canal and an extraction (which we have to pay for since we don't have dental insurance). So not only are we both stressed about what's going on with his MS, we are worried about this dental bill.

Needless to say I'm scared. We talked about what we would do if he wasn't physically able to work after getting his degree, the plans I had for going back to school, what we'd both have to do about jobs, budgeting over the next few months for his dental work, etc. We agreed, even if he has to take it slow, for him to finish getting his bachelors since he's worked so hard and is getting close now. I still won't be able to go back to school until the kids are both in grade school but I wonder if worse comes to worse, if I'll be able to handle working and trying to go to school, yet still be there for my girls and Paul. With Caitlyn's PDD and Paul's MS I just feel so frightened and worried for the future right now. I know everything works out in the end, I'm just having a hard time seeing that right now. I usually try to not post about this kind of stuff. I know most of you come for the art, but thanks for reading this. For some strange reason it helps me to get over feeling down and be mentally able to tackle those challenges ahead. All the art I post lately has been previously scheduled, so at least I don't have to worry about that, lol. Thanks for stopping by! Hugs to all my readers out there!